My glass holds a little more liquid gold
I was skeptical at first
But came to appreciate it’s value
My heart has been warmed by the joy
Of good music and true emotion
And for now I can ignore the turmoil
Forget the fear
The music and the gold have pushed
until tomorrow
Th weight of reasonability that brings me to tears
Tomorrow I will be fat and out of shape
Tomorrow I will be broke and in debt
Tomorrow I will still be a child in my father’s eyes; incapable, broken- unsafe
Tomorrow- I will still be myself, all of me
And tonight, the same
In this moment
The gold is in my viens
And I’m lucky to be alive
I have learned to appreciate the good moments as they come
And build up resiliency against the bad
To learn from both
To be here
Today
Full of gold
Full of music
Each note is beautiful
Each Harmony, chord, and echo
A heartbeat
A caress
A joy
The world is alive and dying around me
And this somehow is love
And Somehow I am made of stardust again
And I can see a horizon
I can see a shore
I can reach for the person I once was
Full of Hope and dreams once more